this is why.

this is where we were last night:

this is music heaven, and i wish you were here.

when i come home lets take a walk through the park. we can hold hands and enjoy the weather upon our faces. we can get some coffee and talk about nothing and i will be satisfied. i cant wait.

its time

it is time for something to happen. i am flying to L.A. on sunday and honestly i have never been this nervous about anything in my whole life. ( and i have been really nervous before) anyway i am excited. ok. .. . so

the weather has changed and fall is here officially. 

i sat in line at a gas station for about a hour yesterday because there is a gas shortage in the carolinas. it feels like the i am an actor in a M. Night Shyamalan movie. people are crazy! rain makes me feel lazy but at the same time very motivated. :) 

ok. . so she likes headbands. . . .who cares!

this is my girlfriend:

she wears head bands

and feather earrings 

and stylish boots

and cute belts

and she makes scrunchy faces

and drinks coffee

she reads books

she loves the Lord

she make me smile

she is amazing!

so what. . . .  

:)

she is coming home

i am happy.

today.

today is september 11th 2008.
7 years ago today terrorist attacked america.
america has bounced back and we are on our feet.

i had to say something about 9/11 (come on)


anyway i am pretty excited about a couple of things that have happened over the last week or so.
1) i have the most amazing girlfriend.
2) public radio is leaving in two weeks to showcase for major labels in L.A.
3) i am almost out of IRS debt.

so. .. yeah i am pretty happy. :)

words

cannot explain how happy i am!

red eye

i am up too early.

i was up too late.

for some reason there has been this verse in the bible stuck in my head for the past like week. i dont know exactly how it goes but i will try my best, so dont quote me on it. it says something like " the violent take the kingdom by force."

anyway i know it is talking about the kingdom of heaven. and it is so true. i was talking with someone the other day about the difference between outgoing people and shy people. and i told my friend that shy people dont want to make choices when given the chance and outgoing people will. life is what you make it. we are all given the chance to make millions of choices daily. i never make all the right ones, but i am trying to and with the help of the Holy Spirit i am getting better. ok i will be back at this exact spot in uh. .. like 9 1/2 hours. i have to go to work.

i dont know about marriage but i am learning about love.

i was just discussing the time of the year we are in with my friend. summer is officially over but fall has not yet arrived. it is still hot as hell outside and the leaves are still on the trees. what do you call this ambiguous state of season? we decided it was called back to school. 

the weekend has started and tonight should be a winner as well as last night. then weekend is sometimes just as busy if not more than the week but you are just doing things that are more fun. 

i almost cried last night watching my friends indie movie on marriage. the title of the movie was "i dont know about marriage but i am learning about love." it was so moving and to know where he has come from to make that movie was a real inspiration to always push forward and keep going. i love my friends and the support and comfort that i always feel around them! 

thank you.

we own the sky

the fear of the unknown will keep people forever grounded.

how to you try things that you are scared to do?

meeting new people, going to a different country, eating a different food, wearing a color you normally dont wear. getting out of what is comfortable and trying something new.

i know for myself i find certain things harder to do that others. i love meeting new people and having the awkward first conversations. i think that you can tell a lot about about a person within the first 10 min you meet them. i love it

somethings that i am not very apt to do are as follows:

i never like fighting with someone, ( i dont mind confrontations) but fighting for no reason bugs the crap out of me. 

i dont particularly like looking at a food menu while the server is standing right in front of you.

and to go along with that i hate shopping when the associate follows you around the whole time!

the constant fear of opening up my heart is always there. i hope that it will go away soon, but who knows. i try to be open and honest but sometimes it backfires. i am still trying. 

lets all learn to be honest and try something new and unusual.

my side of town

yesterday was the longest day i have had in a long time. its not like every day is the exact same amount of time but i was active for like 18 hours of the day. Caribou Coffee is now out of my favorite drink by the way: white tea peach. 

i went to church for about nine hours. 

then it was off to Pf changs for lunch with charis, jessica, raechel, and jeremy.

jeremy and i decided to go take a nap.

i woke up at like 8:30 and went to meet charis and jessica at Caribou.

we proceeded to go to the breakfast club and watch a "B Boy" battle like the movie step it up to the streets, (minus the rain falling)

i went to bed at 2am.

needless to say i had a blast.